9:20 PM |
ah screw it. I didnt exactly intend to blog about this here but heck. Its my blog in the end. Why should i care THAT much about who reads it.
It hurts. I really do like him. And it thrills me to know he feels the same. But both him and her, they are both equally important to me. It hurts her so much.It really pains me. To make others suffer for my own benfit. How selfish can i get. Shes serious about him, and i know that. I wanted to let go, but somehow i just cant, because im simply too selfish, and because of that, she cries, she suffers. Its all my fault. I dont want him or her to read this. Because it'll cause even more pain for both. But than again, its MY blog.
God, im acting like some overdramatic 12 year old.Somewhere within me wishes it never happened, while the other rejoices.I really hate myself sometimes i tell you.Its because of me, shes gone through so much, now when i think back, it has always been because of me.
I really want someone to talk to at a time like this
like her
I want it to be like when we were younger
with nothing except homework to worry about
I want it to be like when we were younger
when we were never so caught up in our own lives,forgeting others around us
I want it to be like when we were younger
When she used to be my closest friend i ever had
and still is
I just want to still be the same friend in her eyes
But than again, maybe it was just me
maybe i just clinged on to her
and just expected her to do the same
Maybe i was nothing more than a mere classmate to her
6 years, maybe it meant nothing at all
Maybe it was just me
Im not making much sense am i? But than again
Nothing ever does
Help...