7:02 PM |
I am terrfied.
Just went back to visit my old house and see how the renovations were going, it was all peachy until my aunt started telling my dad to take care and all that because my uncle had just suffered a minor stroke.She said some other stuff too about how my father should really watch his health and all that due to a family background of health problems too, she never said it out loud, but the message was clear. My father could very well be the next one.I couldent take it, I walked out of the house and ran home, I cried.
My worst nightmare was nearing. My parents arent young anymore. I admit, what my aunt said should'ent have had such an impact on me, but it did. Because I remember worrying about my father and his health, the more I thought, the more I worried. I ve been worrying about this before I even could remeber. I worried about losing my parents one day. At first it just seemed like some nightmare that would never happen. I just believed that. Until today.'It's all fated.'My dad had said. It hit me, it was'ent totally a nightmare, it could very well be real, and I am terrified.I have seen friends lose their parents and still go on, I have seen one of my closest friends lose their only parent left. I fear that that would happen to me too.
I want to cry.
I don't want to lose my dad.I dont want to lose any of the people I love.
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