2:52 PM |
For the first time in 3 years of my secondary education, I was actually happier at school than I am currently at home.I really have no idea how much more of this I can take. I dreaded going home today, something I ve never done in my life, and thats saying something. Gloom just swept over me the moment I walked out of class.
r u gila you wrote on my mirror in lipstick, that was the last straw. Yeah. Maybe I am. But you're forgetting one thing, you. You were the one who made me who I am and how I act now.Walking through the hallway of my house with earphones plugged in music at full blast. Because its easier like that, to pretend you don't exist.Checking under my blankets, in my cupboard and mirrors for shit you might have left me while I was gone for 6 hours.I gave up trying to reason with you long ago, because it feels as though every time I try, I take a step closer to falling off the edge of everything. You say you're stressed huh? That's your pathetic excuse? Well surprise surprise. I'm ACTUALLY stressed too! How about we swap lives for a while, I wouldn't mind too much. You can handle my studies for me,my social life, EVERYTHING, can you do that without messing it up. And I'll do your housework for you. Easy?Don't fucking tell me this isn't a big deal. Because it is to me. You have no idea how close I am to snapping. So don't go flinging advice in my face until you understand what I really feel.
Yeah. Maybe I am crazy after all.