9:55 PM |
I hate it. I hate it when stuff like this happens.When my friends, the people I love and care about are hurt. I'm unable to do anything, except to just look on and watch as they fall apart. I don't know what to do, or what to say to make it better. And find myself wishing almost all the time that I could feel what they were feeling, and grieve along with them, understand what they are going through.When one of my best friend's parent contracted cancer and passed away,I was there and I could not do anything.When another best friend's parent passed on and she called me to tell me, I could not say anything except that I was sorry.When my grandmother passed away, I could not do anything for my mum. When my friends were a mess, I could not do anything. All I did, was to cry.All I did to comfort them, was to freaking cry just like I did tonight.It sucks, to feel so useless when they need their friends the most. All these people, faced the world like nothing happened, I don't have that strength. All I could do was cry. And say I was sorry.
I pray for you Wrixon,and I cry for you. But I sob more for the friends around you and your family, the ones who loved you the most. I cry for how I see my friend fall apart, and only being able to look on and get fustrated about how I can't do anything.I don't know how, and it tears me apart too.